March 17, 2013
Every Cloud has...
I'm the first to admit it: I'm cynical as they come. I'm the first to doubt, to make sarcastic remarks and to roll my eyes. Lately, I've been feeling overwhelmed and unaccomplished in everything. My relationships with friends and family have been shaky. I'm not confident in my design work. I've gone on the worst possible dates. The advice I've been getting is everything I don't want to hear: "Work harder." I'm burnt out. "Be patient." I hate waiting. "Give yourself a break." I don't have time for that.
But taking a step back from it all and doing little things has really made a difference. Treating my roommate to iced coffee when she's had a long night or texting my mom to see how her day is make all the difference. Through small acts that took barely any effort, I have already eased the strain I've felt with two people I care about very much.
Like I mentioned in a previous post, I've been trying my hand at online dating because I'm really bad at introducing myself to people. I've met some of my aforementioned horrible dating on the internet. I'm kind of at the point where the thought of meeting someone else new and spending any amount of time with them makes me crazy anxious. But there was one guy who messaged me all the right things. And we had so much in common so I gave it a shot. It went amazing. Everything was perfect and the next day he wanted to see me again. I can't even describe how happy I am that things are working out.
My last graphic design project was a C. Read: not acceptable. I wasn't happy at all. But my current project is going really well and I'm so happy with it. It's a layout for an artist catalog inspired by illuminated manuscripts. As someone who would like to create magazine layouts in the future, I'm hoping that this piece will be an A and portfolio worthy.
It's nice to have things working out in the midst of all of my course work, various health issues affecting family members and just the general bullshit that is every day life. Looking on the bright side makes things a little more bearable in my cynical world and I'm doing my best to keep finding that silver lining.